Controlling anger

This blog post is well overdue as it involves an incident that occurred nearly two weeks ago now. It was something that had me instantly thinking about what I had done and the benefits that came out of the situation.

As some of you know, I am a Lifeguard for the City Council on a part-time basis along with my studies. On this particular evening two weeks ago on the Tuesday, I was working. As it is currently the summer holidays, swimming sessions tend to be rather busier than during term time. This particular session, had at least 50+ people! There was absolutely no room to swim for anyone.

A customer moved over towards me to enquire about something. He enquired about placing a lane rope out for swimmers who wanted to swim lengths. As it wasn't a lane swimming session, we are bound by rules enforced on us not to put lanes out. So I simply said to this man, that we couldn't put the lanes out and told him the reasons. He moved away but swiftly returned once more. Asking the same question again but a little more aggressively, suggesting that we were not being fair in what we were doing. Giving a similar response, when he came the third time, demanding lanes once more in a forceful manner, I became a little flustered. Raising my voice, I told him if he didn't want to swim with the kids around, to just leave! As he moved away, I muttered "Twat!"

As soon as those words came out of my mind, I thought to myself, what have you said? What was the need for that? How have you benefited from it? If you guys don't know, my mouth used to be really filthy a couple of years ago. I used to swear a lot and it was really constant. for almost a year now, I have been attempting to change my vocabulary and am 99% free from that swearing mouth I had. Currently still trying to better myself, this moment put me 10 steps backwards in my goals.

You may think I'm making a mountain out of a mole hole but truly, sinning is so easy we just don't think about it. A couple of years ago I would have thought nothing of this. But the smaller you make a sin, the bigger and bigger it will only get. And the point of my narration is to tell you all, we should really grasp a hold on our anger. I mean I don't get angry angry and the last time I actually got angry was around 5years ago! But we all have moments when things slip through our mouths and everyone can relate to this. We might think, one phrase isn't a lot, but add up all your phrases and just see for yourselves how plentiful they become.

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